Wednesday, November 7, 2012

LIFE

Hi,

Today I thought of dying by hanging, so I prepared everything (rope) and made ready.

But before that I thought I taking a chance, so I took two bits of paper, in one of the chit I wrote "LIFE" and in the other chit I wrote "DEATH".

then I mixed them and with my closed eyes thinking of my DAD I took one of the chit and when I opened it....

It was "LIFE", I expected to come "DEATH" but only "LIFE", don't know why!

I think there are much more things(bad) which I have to face in this life again.

I think I have to try it again everyday, til I get "DEATH" message.

I shall be waiting for that day.


I fed up with this fucking "LIFE".

I don't want to live, because just because of me, everyone at home is very Disturbed and very upset on me.

So, if I am dead, may be they will not be disturbed any more.

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Hello Everyone.

Hello Everyone,

It's been a very very very long time since I have blogged.

During this time, a lot has happened.

Recently, I lost my Dear Father.

I have lost a very valuable one in my world, which cannot be replaced by anyone.

He has left me a lot many of responsibilities to handle.

I shall try my best to handle them.

I have seen him dying, but still I couldn't do anything neither the Doctors.

I was hopeless. I prayed to God, but my prayers are not answered, not even my mom's, relatives and friends.

May be God is not there, or he might be happy Stealing my Dad with us (even though I begged to him).

There is moment or a place where I can forget him.

How could he(God) do such a terrible thing to us (me, my mom, my dad, my sisters).

I am not able to do even a little work.

I cry everyday blaming the God for stealing my Dad from us.

My Dad was a very kind person,where ever he goes, he got respect from all.

He was such a grateful person I have ever seen in my life.

I shall follow his footsteps, so that one fine day, I shall resemble him.